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Assalamualaikum and Hi,

Chikugunya is one of the epidemics in Malaysia nowadays. News of a pakcik died because of this viral disease has caught my attention this morning. Al-fatihah for the pakcik.

Why has the news caught me?

Its not that I’m a near relative to the pakcik or his granddaughter but I somehow do know how it feels to battle with the fever. I once had dengue when I was in form 5 and had a viral fever few years ago which stops me from joining a program conducted by college (bagus jugak kena demam tue during that time because I wasn’t really fond of joining the dancing competition..hehe).

How does it feel?

Well, it feels like…this..and that…hehe. Hard to precisely describe but in someway it does feel like having dengue. All your joins would be ‘sengal-sengal’. At one moment you are enjoying things you’re doing and five minutes later all you want is to lie down and a good rest. When the fever attacks you don’t feel like doing anything, you feel pain when you walk, eat, sleep. Sakit la katekan. Huhu.

But Alhamdulillah, I went it through with the support from those near me, especially Mama and Abah.

They say, “Prevention is better than cure.” True enough.

How to prevent?

Just look after yourself well. Keep away from mosquitoes. Make sure no conducive environment for the mosquitoes to breed. Yada..yada..

Hmm..though you’ve done all the preventions. It doesn’t mean that you’ll never get it. Pray hard, I’ll say. Kalau kena jugak..ujian la tue.

Because as far as I remember, I did do all the preventions. We live in a healthy environment at home..I keep myself away from the mosquitoes. Yet, there I was, once off from school for two weeks and a week in the hospital.

Hmm..ujian Allah tue dalam pelbagai bentuk…hmm but at the same time those ordeals/ujians are blessings in disguise.

We never know what’s in front of us. Pray harder.

Wassalam.

P/s: Will be off to kampung on my own in an hour. Pray for my safe journey.

3 weeks has past and Alhamdulillah everything at home went well. How are my parents? Hopefully they are fine. Hmm..its been three days without any news from them.

It is not to deny that I do feel tired as to juggle everything that is going on at home. From cooking up to cleaning and taking care of the younger siblings. It is also not to deny that I would sometime grunt for I feel like the burdens are all on me. Why me? Why can’t my big brothers do them? And somehow, grunting is like part of me now. Chores at home never end and taking care of others is one big thing for me, that I could feel the big stone on my head.

Though I try to carry out things as best as I can, yet, something is missing.

I forgot that they should be carried out with sincere heart…and much more love should be added. Without these two main ingredients in life,nothing would go right.

Once the Prophet pbuh said:
“Allah tak menerima amalan, melainkan amalan yang ikhlas dan yang kerana untuk mencari keredhaan Allah.”

Hmm….ikhlas.

No more grunting nor sighing.

Assalamualaikum and Hi!

Feels like smiling to everyone. Hehe.

Alhamdulillah. Mama and Abah had reached Mecca and they are fine. May they be alright and may they be in the guide of Allah at all time. May they pray for me and everyone too. Miss you Ma..and Abah. Huhu.

Its not that I’ve never been left by parents… but this time I feel different. Perhaps I worry too much and maybe it’s because now that I have more responsibilities, as compared to when they went for their first Hajj. Perhaps, it has always been me who leave the house but this time, they are the one left me. Terasa kena tinggal. Hmm..biasenye ikut je Mama pegi mana-mana.

Hmm..Just leave that behind and live a life.

…..

While doing my shopping, I found a little note on the chocolate rack. Rasa bangga plak that they put a reminder for the shoppers. Well, I could say that we don’t usually get to see this kind of note in Malaysia. But Alhamdulillah, they have it now. It’s a good start.

The note:

Yup! I’ve always been very particular about food that I would take some time to read through the bottles, packs. Hmm… it’s important to know the ingredients…and read the labels and food facts because they are meant to be read and “I am what I eat”.

Wassalam.